Do you walk through the halls of depression and self-doubt daily? Have you made them your home? Do you feel like you have been living in a fog, not knowing exactly which way to go to get out of it? Do you even want out?
Depression is an ugly place to take up residence. Add anxiety to the mix and now we have multi-symptoms. Throw in some anger, sprinkle in a little resentment, add a whole lot of fear and we are sure to feel gloom and doom.
You are in a constant battle within. You are supposed to get “this” done but then on the opposite side, you don’t care if you get “this” done or not. Fill in the “this” with your own words.
As humans, we are built to go into survival mode when dealing with physical and/or emotional pain. The source of your pain can come from within the family unit, relatives, friendships, acquaintances, and most surprisingly yourself.
You develop your own coping mechanisms, which become habits, which become our new norm. Now we are in an environment that feels familiar and safe.
However, we have a distorted view of what safe is. Some of us live our lives believing we are much better off just staying where we are. You become comfortable. Too comfortable. Because now you cannot even imagine how your life can be any different than it is right now. But it can.
Have you forgotten what it feels like to have a really good belly laugh? Have you forgotten when the last time was you met up with a friend for coffee?
You have not always sat at home curled up under your covers feeling depressed. I think it is safe to say this because once you were a child. You played. You laughed. You went to public elementary school, junior high, and high school or you were homeschooled. With the right tools like therapy and possible meds, you do not have to stay feeling stuck.
I wish you enough…